Hang in there.......
So many things going on in life right now and it can at times be overwhelming. A couple of weeks ago we had to say goodbye to Ramon's Grandfather who passed away after a 3year battle with cancer. And although he did pass away from cancer, I can honestly say cancer did not win. He was one of the strongest men I've ever known in my life and he never ever gave up! He beat the odds by a few years and He fought hard and he made sure we all had amazing memories with him to hold onto until we see him again on the other side. We take comfort knowing he is happy and healthy living pain free in heaven and we will see him again someday!
But I know that sometimes life has a way of hitting us all at once and it can be so hard and so heavy it feels as though we will never fly again. But I promise you the wings always come back so never give up! No matter how bad or how hard the storm of life may be, I need you to remember that every storm ends. I need you to remember that at the end of every overwhelming circumstance is a testimony! I need you to remember that you are so much stronger than you yet know! And you will be okay!
After seeing recent news stories about more than one person taking their own life. After walking through the pain of losing a friends to suicide and then watching my husband go through that same pain and after knowing what it feels like to feel that desperate and empty and come out on the other side of it alive.....I need you to know that You are not alone! This world is not better off without you in it! You can't even begin to imagine how many people love you and you can't even begin to imagine how much the God of the universe loves you! There is nothing you could have done or ever could do that would make Him love you any less.
People make the mistake of believing (thanks to a lot of terribly misinformed church people) that God does bad things, that He causes or allows bad things to happen when God is the most loving, caring person in existence because He is love. His heart was broken that you were hurt so badly, that a very real enemy was able to drag you through that hell on earth. And you may not have realized it but He went through all of that with you and He made sure that you made it. And He is looking out for you right now.
I may not know exactly who I am writing this to and I don't need to. God knows who you are and you know who you are and my prayer is that you will continue to read and Give the God you have spent a lifetime rejecting because of years of very real hurt a chance to prove Himself faithful to you. He knows you were hurt, He knows you don't trust him and it's okay He loves you just the same.
"John 10:10 Amplified Bible " The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance, to the full, till it overflows". God's dream for you is healing, happiness and joy and an amazing life!
God loves us so much that He gave us the freedom to chose not to love Him, not to follow Him and not to allow him access into our lives. But He also is standing by to jump in the second we cry out to Him. No matter how bad what happened to you was, He can redeem it. He can take what a very real enemy meant to destroy you and turn it around into something amazing and life changing for the better this time. All you have to do is cry out to Him, trust Him, give Him a chance to prove that He's is Love. You have never in your life known love until you experience the love of God for the first time first hand. He didn't put you through that pain but He will pull you through it so you can have happiness and joy again.
I'm not judging you or trying to change you that's not my place and Jesus very clearly did not take kindly to people doing that in the bible so I stay clear of that. But I so want you to know that there is something that heals the pain, that makes the empty hole inside you full. His name is Jesus and He loves loves loves loves loves you so incredibly much. And I love you and I am praying for you wherever you are and whatever you are going through that you find God right where you are.
John 3:16 Amplified Bible "For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world, that He even gave His one and only begotten Son, so that whoever believes and trusts in Him as Savior shall not perish but have eternal life.
He loves you so much, I cannot say that enough. And I'm sorry for any bad examples of the Christian faith you have seen or had to go through. We are all people and people are imperfect but we serve a Father who is full of forgiveness, and Mercy and Grace. And it's so easy to give your life to Him (I'm not saying life will be perfect with God in it because it won't be. Life is messy and this world is a seriously messed up place) but you will have a way to get through it and a peace and comfort and love I can't even begin to describe.
Romans 10:9 "If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved" it's that simple we are the ones who make it complex. I can tell you in closing that if I'm wrong and God didn't exist, If as some have said there is no point to it all, I've lost nothing. I will have lived my life having someone to rely on, to turn to and run to when life was more than I could handle. I will have lived my life feeling loved when I was unloveable and secure and protected when everything around me was crashing in. I will have lived my life free from fear in the hope of heaven with no more pain, tears or sorrow surrounded by my Daddy's love (that is the kind of relationship with God I have). I will have lost nothing. I will have lived my life being there for others and putting more good into the world than taking it out because of my faith in God so I will have lost nothing. But if I'm right and there is a God, a God who truly wants what's best for you, who wants to love you and comfort you what would you be losing to give Him a chance?
I have been through a lot of stuff in my life. A lot of hard things and a lot of pain but the one constant is He has been my God through all of it. And He has never failed to pull me up and hold me and let me feel His love when I need it most. I pray that you get to experience that love for yourself.
Just cry out to Him.......He will find a way to reach you, He always does.
I love you!
This is who I am
Bobbie De Leon
