Sleepless nights....

My heart is breaking tonight.......breaking for the condition our broken world is in. I try so often to stay busy so that I don't have to see all the desperation in our world. I don't do this because I am not working towards ways to improve it or change it I am. I do this because my heart is so tender it is very easily broken. And sometimes seeing and hearing all the devastation and loss and loneliness is just too much for me to bear. I don't just see a news story about a young man driven to suicide.......I weep for his mother. I cry for all those who will never see his special light again, I grieve and my heart shatters for the knowledge that he didn't realize how bright his light was or how important that light was for the world to see. I am crushed to realize he was so badly hurt that he saw talking his life as the only way to make it stop. I think of all the times I'm in a hurry and tired and frustrated and so wrapped up in myself that I forget to look up, I forget to really see and smile at the people walking by me. I have no way of knowing if that single acknowledgment actually makes a difference at all.......but what it if does? What if that smile keeps someone going who was about to give up? What if that eye contact, that acknowledgment that they exist and they matter keeps someone alive? I may never know for sure but just the possibility is enough to make me do it. So I challenge myself (and all of you) get out of your own world long enough to make a difference. Be the love you always needed, be the love you still need. Let people know you see them and that they matter. They may ignore you completely and that's ok but you just might change a life including yours.

Be honest, Be real, Be you

Bobbie De Leon