Saying goodbye to Blazer Dog....

We are preparing to say goodbye…

Our PayPal is: https://paypal.me/ramonandbobbie

I hate asking for help, and 99% of the time I just don’t, and try my best to figure it out. But this is my sweet boy, so I’m asking. We have tapped out between my auto-immune stuff and trying everything to save Blazer and Lainey, who both got sick in the last three weeks. Lainey has recovered and is doing better. Blazer has not been responding to treatments or much of anything else. We’ve continued praying for a miracle every day.

The worst part of Blazers came on suddenly. He lost the use of his back legs, which has now spread to losing most of the use of all of them. Ramon has to carry about 90% of his weight by using a lifting harness so he can still go to the bathroom, which has been difficult to say the least.

Our boy had still been eating and drinking and wagging his tail (as much as he can) and fighting to be here, so we have been prepared to fight for and with him as long as he can fight and that time seems to be coming to an end.

As we have progressed trying to get his body to respond to treatments, his body has been giving up without his consent. His breathing has become very labored, and it’s clear his heart is struggling. He is running a fever on and off. And his body will shake badly during those times, and last night he just sort of collapsed into us while we were trying to get him back in from the bathroom.  It is clear he is scared so we just hold him close and love on him until he falls asleep.

He is still fighting to stay here even though he doesn’t have much to fight with. It has been so hard to watch, and I desperately wish I could fix it and ease it for him somehow. The vet wants to run one last set of tests to make 100% sure we have done everything we can. Obviously, if those tests show no hope, then we will do what we have to do for him. And we will both be with him when he crosses the rainbow bridge. We do not want him to suffer, and we would never let him face that alone. He is our baby, and we want to be sure that when that call is made, it is the last viable option.

If we have to let him go, we would be very thankful to have the people who so kindly and compassionately handled sweet Jeannie take him, they brought so much peace and comfort. In the meantime, we have held him, cuddled him and loved him. While also trying to let Lainey Bug have her time with him and comfort as well. We have all cried a lot. And I have cried more tears than I thought I could even produce and I know that part is not going to be over for a long time.

Please pray for us and for sweet Lainey Bug, as this is her brother from the womb and I cannot bear to lose them both super close together. They were born on September 13^th 2013, and we’ve had them since they were just a few weeks old. We spent the first couple of months bottle-feeding, traveling for special vet visits and praying they would survive. Now, here we are, almost thirteen years later. Not nearly long enough for me.

They have been our entire world, and no amount of time with them would have been enough. They have given me a reason to keep going so many times. And even with the heartbreak, I don’t regret a day, and every moment was worth it. I feel horrible for people who live without getting to love and be loved by a dog.

Losing either of them is the worst heartbreak. And the quiet and beginning of the emptiness is already here even though Blazer is not gone yet. I realized today, that is because I’ve watched and felt pieces of him little by little disappear every day. I wish I could keep him here forever, both of them, at least as long as we are here. But I believe I will see him again someday, until then my heart is going to have a Blazer sized hole in it. whicl I will fill with as many memories as I can hold.

 If you can help and want to give, I cannot even say thank you enough. If you cannot, we understand that as well.

Our PayPal is: https://paypal.me/ramonandbobbie

Thank you so much

Bobbie, Ramon, Blazer Dog and Lainey Bug De Leon