Thoughts from my journal....

September 24th, 2024  10:10am

It’s officially fall! I was so excited to walk outside to 55 degrees, it was actually a little chilly.  everything is so chaotic right now. The calm and quiet of a chilly morning feels heavenly.

I’ve started getting up again just before the sun wakes up. Everyone is still asleep (including my sweet fur babies) and I can just sit in the quiet. A true challenge when you have a busy brain like I do but it can be done. It has taken a lot of practice, work and discipline but it is so worth the time put in. It is something beautiful to just sit there, breathe, sip my coffee and focus on all the things I’m thankful for.

Now for the reason I do this… Things have been hard for everyone for a long time, and they do not appear to be getting better. So, either I could stay stuck in all that junk or find a small escape that costs no money (except the coffee which I make at home) and the chair which was purchased and paid for years ago lol.

The rest is nature and my mind. I’ve had to focus hard on settling into a peace and gratitude, talking to God…something I’ve done daily since I was three, and letting go of all things I cannot control. Letting go of all things that just don’t matter. And shifting all that attention to just being in the moment I am in.

An amazing thing happens in that quiet, crips and cool early morning hour just as the sun is starting to wake up. The problems of the day for me are not awake yet either, the stress and trauma are all somewhere else at that time. So… for those moments, however long they last, I gain the strength, peace, joy, gratitude and grit to fight through another day.

Eventually I believe that will change my reality from survival and fight or flight to health, peace, joy and gratitude no matter what the chaos of the world around me might be. But if it doesn’t, I still survive and from either place I can still make a difference big or small.

I hope everyone learns to look for the good, find things to be thankful for, find ways to make a difference and realize we have far more uniting us than than they want us to believe.

Have a beautiful fall.

Be Honest, Be Real, Be You

Eternally addicted to hope

Bobbie De Leon